July 11, 1995 to September 7, 2011
(written the day after we lost Emily)
There is so much to say, and while the desire is there to type, the words just aren't coming. There are too many feelings and they are all raw.
Yesterday we spent the day numb. Oh, we were feeling but we weren't sure. It was almost like we were holding our breath. Well, today our breath was taken while we viewed Emily's body.
How can someone so beautiful, and so full of life, be cold and hard and so not alive?
Our breath was taken but our soul cried out when we saw her laying there. How can that be? Lose your breath and cry out at the same time? Knees buckle . . . eyes shut - tight - but you have to open them again because you know the cold hard truth.
I worry about my friend Beth. How will she be after this? How can she be? Her daughter - her heart is gone. Her life revolved around Emily's life. School, FFA, cheerleading, homecoming, proms . . .
I tell her momma that Emily is happy now. Emmy is fine now and I believe that. I know Emily loved our Savior. She was full of faith. She was a Christian. She is with our Lord. She is holding his hand. I know this. I can see her hand in His.
Emily's favorite verse: Philippians 4:13
But we miss her AND we thank God for the 16 years we were graced with Emily's presence. Emmy had such beautiful light bright blue eyes and she was so full of gentleness and happiness and grace. Firefly is what keeps popping into my mind. She was like a firefly dancing through our world for a short short while.
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